So, recently, in the past few months as I have recuperated from all. of. the. drama. from. last. year, I've been doing fix-up projects in my house. I painted my kitchen aqua with putty trim, I painted the trim in my dining room (which is half the room) robin's egg blue, I hung creamy yellow roman shades with a large terra-cotta and metallic gold architectural motif in my buckskin-painted living room, I hung chocolate-brown, lined panels in my dining room, I hung turquoise sheers in my pink bedroom (with tangerine sheets), I've hung white, light filtering roller shades in my kitchen. I've changed out knobs on drawers, shower curtains, bathmats; I've framed pictures that needed framing; I've hooked up my record player; I've cleaned everything, including shampooing my carpets. It's been some fierce nesting that I've been doing.
I had a party at my house on Saturday night, and my party-goers helped with the clean-up (that was nice!), and I did the rest--dishes in the dishwasher, table cleared, food in the fridge. (I even cleaned my bathroom before the party. You'd think a housecleaner would clean the bathroom more often than I do. I keep up with the fixtures, but the floor can get a little pet-furry.) My kids were gone most of the day yesterday, and I was sick with the cold that I still have today. I watched TV and knitted, and every once in a while, I'd walk the length of the house to the kitchen to make some tea or whatnot, and I'd admire how nice it looks, but, that's it. A little boring, now that it's all done. Part of me thinks that I should be rejoicing in all my accomplishments.
But this other part of me is like, now what? I needed to get all this done, it's true. But now that I'm not going to be stressing and fussing about these projects, what am I to do with myself?
Of course, I know the answer. Fixing up my house was a reflection of fixing up myself, my insides. And my internal work is more or less at the same place as my home improvement. So, now I need to go out and socialize. My house will still be beautiful and awesome when I come home.
What form will the socializing take? I don't know yet.