i decided to risk running into bd and spend a week at my mom's. honestly it's unlikely that i'll see him, he rarely leaves his house. i'll still be careful though and not go into town alone.i've been refusing to come here because of this intense fear that i'll see him and it will set him off. i so badly needed to get away.

i'm glad i came here. it's so beautiful and i feel more relaxed already.i wish i could walk into town, go to a cafe and the bookstore and say hello to aquaintances. sadly i cannot so will settle for a walk with my dog down a wooded residential street where i know he will not be. mom and i will be making blackberry, apple and plum jam which i'm very excited about.

here's a pic of my 8mo belly and me outside of my favorite place in the east bay (east bay depot for creative reuse). i was once again being a total hormonal bitch to my mom, she was nice enough to take the snapshot. i'm in a much better mood now, thankfully.