Life is not fair
Submitted by urbanearthmama on Sat, 08/30/2008 - 6:04pm.
Okay, so thats a dumb statement, but thats how I feel right now. I'm mad and sad and frustrated. We have decided not to keeep the baby, but I'm not totally good with it. I do realize that if I really wanted to keep it and said so, DH would and he'd be great about. I feel our choice is being made completely on monetary level of the fact that we live rather tightly right now so DH can go to school, something that is SO important to me(and of course him) that I don't want to risk or change it. And #4 would mean a new car(grrr) and in the next three years expanding the house(3 bedrooms). I feel that the only reason to keep it is because I want to and thats just selfish. But it makes me sad. I'm smart, I have a degree, I work hard, but because I work in a place I LOVE and its an Arts not for profit, I'm poor. Yes, I know there are alot of choices out there and I could work elsewhere and make more money and DH could quit school and work, but thats not what we want.
So no baby. But I'm sad.
I'll call my doctor after the holiday weekend and see what my options are.
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I'm keeping you in my thoughts -- this sounds so tough.