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leaving my job on september 30th, wish me luck ladies! 10/wedSubmitted by dragon chic on Thu, 08/28/2008 - 2:42am.
where am i right now? i don't know - sometimes you just gotta dig deep. today was one of those days. 1. first off - no monkey business, how was your day? 2. after suffering public humiliation #2 yesterday, i opted to put my notice in. i told my boss where to shove it, and did it. this lady is stuck. my boss dumped on me for the last time. she demanded that i take off my pink tights, in front of other co-workers. i felt like i was in 7th grade again. i let alot of things go, but when it got public, i had to do something about it. 3. when someone is lying to themselves - you really can't help them. at 66, she should no better. she's got nobody real in her pocket, i've got the rest of the crew. 4. i spoke to HR about what i had witnessed all year, and it felt like a waste of time. i blew my whistle, like i do. my way. people get upset when you pull a norma rae, but i did it for myself. in the process i was able to offer up some protection to my friends, and in return i asked for protection for myself. i hope that make sense. 5. i'm a movie director, i'm on the fast track. i'm an artist, i don't need this. 6. aligning my path with intent and will. it's taken me a while to do it/figure it out, but it was worth the wait. i feel good about what awaits me, my future and where i truly need to be. 7. i'll stop by seattle central tomorrow to complete my financial aid packet, i can pull this off. 8. i'm job searching and manifesting something big. i can do both, my timing is right. 9. i always tell the truth - i've always contained a lot. i'm learning how to handle situations better. i know what is worth fighting for, and what isn't. 10. my friends are excellent, they're planning a huge party for me. i'm gearing everyone up for fun! 11. i lucked out - i can take this title and turn it into the big bucks, i can take more film classes and make more movies. movies are all that matter to me, period. i forgot that people don't like to see this. is it a reminder to them that they're not on their path? i've made my decision. it takes guts to live your truth, but we all must. or else. move out of the way when you need to, and don't be afraid. if you are, breathe deeply into your solar plexus, visualize pulling the problem up, and through your heart center and out of your head center. anyone can do this - love, christy X dragon chic's blog | login or register to post comments | email this page | printer friendly version
i love you girl, i think of you everyday! thank you for your ongoing support, this one was tricky from the get go. i'm job searching everyday, and i'm moving forward as quickly as i can. this situation needed to come to a halt, i got sick of being dumped on by her. haley and i had lunch today and she said that the whole office knows the truth, and she's right! there's a certain kind of scorpio satisfaction in knowing that! i always tell the truth, not always pretty, and sometimes it feels like a leap of faith to get over it, but it's good in the end. wish me luck high priestess! send my love to the boys! i bet the beach trip was fun! love, christy x/dc the offical asian adventuress! WHAT?! That is some crazy shit mama! CRAZY. Rooting for you, as always. You rock my socks off. why would i wish you luck? Luck is for people who need something cosmic that they don't already posses? You have it all. You got what you needed and you are moving on! I think 'taking off your pink tights' can be a euphanism for all kind of things! seriously, I am adopting that and going to apply itfor the rest of my life! " Whyd you break up with so and so?" "In order to work here, I'd have to take off my pink tights!" " Don't wear pink tights to that party." She did you a favor in the long run! Fly, dragon fly! thanks patty. i needed to hear this - you're right, you can apply the pink tight euphanism/theory to any challenge in life. i'll remember to do this - sometimes i get overwhelmed, i forget what i'm really doing here! i'm flying baby - i'm not sure what the destination is at the moment, i'm trying to uncover my true heart feelings as i type this. i hadn't planned on doing this right now, you know? i thought i had enough time, i could buy more - but i can't. it's okay though, i need to figure this thing out. thank you for listening - you're never far away from heart, please don't forget that. someday, when we're eating burgers, i'll get to thank you and look into your dreamy all seeing eyes and the world will be spinning inside them! i love you patty, always will. christy x, dc and whoever else i am!!! the offical asian adventuress! I can not believe that she tried to make you take your tights off. That is BS seriously! what can anyone say to this? it wasn't fair, but i swear that i've forgiven her for the situation. i have too - there's no point in dragging it out. she is so upset by me leaving. devestated, is not an understatement. but the truth lies in not treating people this way. some people never learn, and man, i still love her and appreciate what she taught me this year. i remember a few months ago when her mother dying, in the middle of all this shit, she was so upset. she was starting to cry and she was running for the bathroom, i grabbed her and forced to her stay - i held this giant mean old lady in my arms and let her cry. i had too, she feels nothing most of the time, she's so numb. so here's to mean old ladies who we love in spite of their retardation! it's a fine line isn't it?!! crazy how life works sometimes! i even told HR that i knew she did the best she could with what she had, nothing will change my mind about this. i know too much! i know everything that she's done behind the scenes, and most importantly i know what real growth feels like. i'll wear my tights somewhere else! p.s. oddly enough, if i didn't forgive her, it would only make it harder on me in the next 30 days. i can't do it, i chose to drop it with her yesterday. i love you bitch! christy - dc - x the offical asian adventuress! Dude, she tried to make you take off your tights??? What a C*@T! oohh boy,those tights, i swear i still have them balled up in my desk. i kept them there like dork to show HR if it came down to it, and it didn't. she has - you're right - the universe - i love her, i work with her as best as i can. i've come a long way in a short time, i am moving foward. that doesn't mean that i'm not scared, because i am. but i don't let it freeze me up, i just go. homemade ketchup - that sounds awesome! what next? i wish you were at the chris rock show last night, he was on fire! i did take off the tights in the end - that was the funny part. bottom line, i learned that i had conformed as much as i could to this job, and that i wasn't willing to confrom any further. it wasn't worth it to me personally or professionally. and guess what? i also learned that i'm not at heart a "professional"!!!! ha! the world knew this before i did! i'm cool with it, i need to find my perfect match, it will find me instead. love you e - forever and a whole lot more - christy x the offical asian adventuress! hi love! oh my god! i thought about this, paula agreed last night, especially after she saw them! i still had them stashed in my desk, she looked at them and said: "are you kidding me?". i think that pretty much summed it up! they are not only the cutest pair i own, but pretty mild in comparrison to what i've worn in the office before. this was bad timing on donna's part - she blew it. the upnote is that i'm looking forward to working somwhere where i can make more money and it can be a non-issue. i don't have to deal with this shit anymore. life can be easier. at 35, i think i know what works for me! and she's not one to talk! i've seen the scandalous knee high gear that cuts her circulation off! and the added bonus are the tore up toe holes! rude style! i miss you friend - love, christy X!! the offical asian adventuress! I have been there Dragon. The mind games of unhappy women stuck in a box can be intense. Glad you are blowing out of there like a rocket. Can I say I knew you before you were famous? Big hugs and kisses. please do it! when i'm on the red carpet blowing kisses, please scream my name in the crowd, i'll come over and give you a hug! security won't like it, but tough shit. you and i have been friends for a long time now. we got this! i love you pina, thank you for thinking of me. always. i need that rocket power girl, this has been tough for me. the box issue - you understand who this person is. i can't help her. from all my reading, i know that if you channel to people and the tension only builds you need to stop. some people can't handle a huge surge of love coming there way, it's almost too much for them. so i stopped, i knew it was the right thing to do! hard, because i genuinely like to help people, but some people can't receive it, so i can't push it. fine line # 20 million for me to learn! life is good darlin - and ike is king! forever, your friend - christy x/dc the offical asian adventuress! HR is going to hate themselves for not having listened to you. Something is going to come up here, mark my words. Oh, I am soooo glad you are out of there. You will miss P and H but it sounds like those two will continue to be in your life after this. I can't wait to hear what you will be up to next. check your pm's. that conversation was hysterical, and i'm not even being sarcastic about it. you should have been there, i think you were in spirit! i was able to spin white light above her head the whole time, it always helps to visualize this energy in the middle of a tough conversation, it helped me keep my shit flowing, precise and under control while listening to the lamest bullshit on earth! it felt wasteful, but i thanked her for her time, for listening and the truth is out there. and yes, you're right - i agree, there in for it. sadly enough, they won't take an immediate stance, but that's okay. i bought myself some protection and time, and protected everyone else in the process. oh to be a masculine woman! someday i'll have a real man who can do the job, mama won't feel the need to do it. HR said that it was okay for her to tell me to take them off, she could have sent me home. BUT to down me in front of my co-workers was not okay! technical schmechnical. she fucked up about 4-5 "offical" times, they'll talk with her about it on oct 2nd!! how funny is that? the fine line came between me saying this was "confidential" vs. "unconfidential". she suggested i go the confidential route to protect myself from her and ultimately from getting fired before the 30th, can you believe it? some words are best left unsaid, but i opted to say everything. i pulled a tom cruise/demi moore film manuever, i felt like it was necessary. fine - no biggie. i'm just relieved to be moving on, and scared too to pull this thing off. i'll do it, i must. forever, christy x the offical asian adventuress! I'm so proud of you and rooting for you all the way. Your (almost former!!!) boss does sound stuck, or at least on a very different path and has no respect for YOUR path!!! It's amazing and powerful to watch you stay true to yourself, your truth, your love of life! YOU ROCK, christy!!! Thanks for sharing your kick-assed-ness with us! thank you friend! man, what a ride this one has been huh? what can i say at this point, this has been a huge life lesson for me. my counselor pointed out a few weeks ago that i head learned everything there was to learn, time to go now. she was right, do i jumped. respect - why don't people act on this? it doesn't take much to leave someone alone, i get dissapointed when i see this behavior repeatedly, especially in older folks who really DO know better. chris rock made some excellent jokes last night about john mc cain, he said: "think about it, how many 72 year old people did you see today, just going around doing shit?". "america would literally be one slip in the tub away from disaster!". this man is brilliant! my personal/all time fav: "how can you make decisions about the future, when you won't even be there!". thank you for believing in me, this is priceless. life is sacred, this ain't all we got, but dang it! we can have fun, grown, experience, take care of our selves/business, heal and make it better. being present is what counts. love, christy x/dc the offical asian adventuress! that is so true! best wishes, I am rooting for you my mama blog what the f? she was trying to make you take off your tights? she has no right to do that. maria - if i was in kansas right now, i would kiss your cheek! how is your family? i love you dearly. this whirlwind has come to an end - my tears are shedding right now, i think it's a combonation of things. relief, adventure, the tension, the stress that i've been under, many things. i can't thank you enough for your compassion, and understanding. you see what has gone on here, i've been under the gun this whole year. the upside is that i did it, i was able to stay even longer than planned, for a past professional job jumper this is huge. present tense - i'll receieve this next big gig with an open heart, grace and self assurance. how can i turn this down? the opporunity will find me. i've bought some time, you know that i'm good at that! but that's the small stuff right? i'm living for the abundance now, i must. i'm ready - thank you for listening, i need you by my side right now. life is sweet - christy the offical asian adventuress! This move has been coming for you--I'm glad you got the time right. Exciting things are coming, and you're ready for it. Manifest! you're right, about everything. my path is wide open, and for the first time ever, my career is the focus and center stage. 35 ain't too shabby, huh? i will manifest what i need - what the kids need, and mostly, what i need to become a film director. thank you for believing in me - always! your friend, christy X the offical asian adventuress! This is all gonna be ok, sweetie. you always come through for me, thank you for being with me right now. i need the encouragement! love, christy X the offical asian adventuress! That boss sucks rocks. Gotta get some sleep but wanted you to know I'm reading and vibin' you on a way to earn the rent while you are making your dreams come true!!!
i am very upset tonight - mars is in the bath late. i'm in another transition, i really need you right now. thank you for thinking of me friend. i'll do this - you'll be proud of me, i promise. love, christy X the offical asian adventuress! |
We were away at the beach & I'm so glad that I caught this - I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!! You are so strong & brave & true to yourself. I'm so glad that you can turn this into something big & great on your path towards movies. I know that this is going to be a fantastic turn of events. Congrats! Love, T
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