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saturday night/tattoo expo's 10Submitted by dragon chic on Sun, 08/10/2008 - 12:22am.
hello friends - this is for you: 1. i'm at work, the system allows me to handle biz as needed. i allow myself the luxury to dress up all nice on the clock and head out to a tattoo convention! life works! 2. ashley - the heart of all hearts, the stars of all stars. my buddy and i sat and talked up a storm tonight - i love her dearly. 3. my buddy lisa turns 40 on thursday, all she wanted was 40 cupcakes on her special day. wish granted. 4. took the mars to the eye docs today, she's solid! $50 well spent! 5. i'm job searching still, wish me luck. thank you in advance! 6. the man bot's - reading an excellent book by david deida, courtesy of my counselor - man this dood is good! it's: "It's a guy thing". get this book - it's all about the masculine/feminine roles and rules. what works, what doesn't. it's sexuality, why men do what they do, important kind of stuff. it just makes sense. 7. C06 - i hope you're having an excellent vacation, you deserve only the best times girl! 8. wife's - it was great connecting with you, i'm sorry that it took me so long! you're a great lady, period. 9. sassafrass - i'm thinking of you! 10. geeks - yeah! you're beer arrived!! i'm just waiting to get it from the office building, they kept my package safe while i was at work! what an honor it is to receive a gift like this! dragon heart brew it is!!!! 11. to be a dragon, is not easy - right now. i'm up against some work shit. ate shit publicly over a lie that my boss told. this is inspiring me to take ahold of my anger addiction even more, i witnessed someone wig out on me that is another anger/rage addict, and it was ridiculous! (they are also an obese alcoholic, but who's looking?!!). unless someone is about to be murdered, there is no reason to be red faced and have a comb over explosion!!! life is sweet - there is no reason to go overboard. i've been the professional fall guy for my shitty boss, and it won't happen again. this comes back to the kinds of people who only try to use me for my strength, my counselor keeps reminding me of this. i am strong, but i am a whole person first. my current position forces me to be in the masculine 110% of the time, and this is unacceptable. i am a dragon heart fem bot, and nothing more. i need to make a change, and i will. here's too just living your life, on your own terms - heart - DC dragon chic's blog | login or register to post comments | email this page | printer friendly version
thank you my love! today, i'm in need of the row machine at 24 hour fitness! i appreciate your compliment today - your support and love mean the world to me. i'm feeling the pull today, not totally sure why. what is it? the work issue? my overwhelmed sense of heighted single parenthood? the fact that i haven't gotten laid in 5 fucking months?!! (dang it, i'm counting??!!). i need to release, and i always dig deep enough to do it. like it or not! you and i are the same age! i was talking to a work buddy who is also the same age as us, it seems like the 35's are out there, but where? you always hear of the people either 5 years younger or older. seems odd - because we rule the world, don't we? the marszilla - we used to call her that all the time when she was little! thank you for understanding the eye care biz! that extra $40 was a shocker, i was prepared to only pay the $10 co-pay! it was okay, and necessary in the end! i respect your feeling's about men - i think they know this, deep down, at least sometimes. do we need them? do we want them? what can they do for us? what is our role, what is theirs? i'm learning all about this as we speak. i'm the woman who needs a man, seriously. you know that i recently accepted that it was going to take me a little longer than planned, and it's not too shabby. consider that i split with the kids dad only 14 months ago. not that long ago really, you know what i'm saying here. in terms of a life span or personal/spiritual growth, 14 months ain't nothing. BUT, after reading this david deida book, i realize that i've come farther than i initially thought, and i've done as much work as i can without having a partner to bounce it off of. the rest of this stuff, needs to be done with a man, the real work needs to be done while in a relationship with someone. the dang recopriocity thing! dang it! the shitty boss - thank you for loving me through this issue. my strength can be a double edge sword. it's great, i got it, i need it, i use it, it's a built in part of me. i sort of even take it for granted sometimes, and it's okay for me to do that. it's mine, and it can be used anyway that i want to bend it, even for kicks! BUT, when people like her pull my switch, i have to retreat, or in this case protect myself from every angle. maybe it's not really that way? maybe i just feel that way about it? i don't know, i'll ask my therapist about this! she's hide behind me for a year now, and i'm going to shaker her off my back. i had to carry 6 heavy grocery bags home yesterday, the challeging part was that i had lifted weights the day before and my muscles were tired. a man would have come in handy at that moment. i did the right thing, i kept putting my bags down and sending out the fem S.O.S signal, this is practice for me. i could have willed "help" my way, and instead i had men looking at me and thinking i was nutty for carrying the heavy bags myself! i'll do better next time! the manifestation thing is pure majic - you'll get what you need, in the way that you can receieve it. so the trick is to expand your way of thinking, learn to open up to receiving and believe that you can receieve what you want! easy, but it's all in the practice. the awesomeness - i'm ready for it! hearts, christy/DC the asian le femme nikita with an open heart chakra! *whew!* don't take me too seriously when i hate on the menfolk. i'd LOVE to be dating the right guy right now but he hasn't materialized and i'm sorta snippy about the last dude who sucked. this ought to make you feel better - i have not had sex, not even close, in 2 years 1 month. wait, is my math right? F is 16 months, plus the 7 months i was pregs (was still with ex first two months of pregs) so yes, 2 years 1 month. do lady bits shrivel up and die if they don't get any action for that long? hey, i guess i could've fucked the fucked up guy, but i've been down that road and i want sex with the man i'm madly in love with and he's gotta feel the same way about me. no more kid stuff for me. i respect the ladies who can have a good old fashioned roll in the hay just for the hell of it cause having a baby changed all that for me. i need more. and i hear you on having a man around with the six bags of groceries. the time i most want a guy around is when i'm lugging F out of the car seat, trying to find the house key, trying not to drop F while I pick up his sippy cup that he's flung across the yard and running after the dog who now has the sippy cup and is halfway down the street with it. i want some help too, mama. i can't let it get me down though. i still have 2 years of school, then a move to another city and my man may not be on the horizon yet. i guess i have to dig in my heels and ride out this tough part and start manifesting my butt off. and working on me too because i want to be in great emotion, mental, physical shape when he shows up. yeah, so don't let me get to shitty when i talk about men. i want one. i just want the very best one. just one more thought and i'll leave off the long winded typing. about this boss of yours... sometimes you meet weak, damaged, needy, life-blood suckers who feed off of your strength. it used to happen to me all the time and i couldn't figure how i ended up with so many losers around me. i finally decided that they were leeching all the good stuff from me like emotional vampires and i cut 'em loose. maybe she's one of those psychic blood suckers and she needs a metaphorical stake in the heart and big tasty bite of garlic. you'll know how to do it when you're ready. had a great saturday! went to wifemotherslave's birthday/house warming party and it was a very good time. it was especially fun to see someone who is not used to being in the spotlight be the center of attention for a night! the party was a hit, this makes me smile! the spotlight - i agree, it's most important for the folks that are mellow/more behind the scenes - it makes me happy to see someone shine! this was wife's weekend! you had a fun and busy weekend - this is great! my boss - she's toppling as we speak - this thing has been building up for years. this is the best example that i can give of someone who shut down their heart and lost the opportunity to jump when the timing would be better. she's going to have to do it anyways, with or without me there. i'm proud of the work that i've done, and the people that i've served. i have a few more lessons to learn in the situation and then we're good to go - i can feel this. i'm a fast learner, so i want the in and out variety of life lessons - with no pain. the job search is on tonight - we can do this! love, DC - christy the asian le femme nikita with an open heart chakra! *whew!* Solid list lady. My Sat was golden. Had a big party and Maria was my right hand lady. She and I are sisters through and through. i know you guys had fun! maria is a sweetheart! you are soul sistas! great list - i'm down for that fairtrade biz! the stronger the better! old friends and new friends - they are family! the universe! it's what we can dream up, receieve, the whole 9! do it, babe! this is where your heart is! love, dc. christy. the asian le femme nikita with an open heart chakra! *whew!* and the inspiration. wow, what happened with that work issue? you and me on the job search -- is there a way we can raise our collective job search energy? hi gorgeous friend! i love you lady - i'm thinking about you right now! the jobs are out there, i'm sold on it. i keep manifesting the images i need - the cool co-workers, the outfits, the work, the desk, the office, the stuff i need. we are making it happen! love you! dc/christy the asian le femme nikita with an open heart chakra! *whew!* |
i love that your friend celebrated with 40 cupcakes. i'm five years away from 40 and its going to be the best birthday yet.
we all knew mars had perfect third eye vision, now we know her other eyes are good too.
good job for getting her checked - healthy eyes are so important.
the boss sitch - mama, you're already rising about like you always do. she can't touch you and you're strong enough to take on a little extra where others can't or won't. it won't be like this forever.
"it's a man thing"... lady, at this point i'm not sure i want to know what is going on under the surface. a dry spell and a realization that today, i don't want or need a man. tomorrow that will probably change.
i've been trying the manifesting stuff. it takes practice and lots of positivity. i'm working on it. thanks for a good tool.
glad the beer arrived safely. hope you enjoy it.
this is your week, dc. get ready for the awesomeness.