Oh, how I miss HM! Working full time was great at first but now it is getting sucky. I miss my kids tremendously and the kids are having a very rough time. Ava has been crying every time we go to school (I am a preschool teacher so she is in the same building) and has been really acting out. There are some issues I'm not crazy about at the school that would take forever to write here and I'm really wondering if this is all worth it. I only bring home $120 a week after daycare costs (I do get a discount, but I have 2 kids in there) but the extra money is needed. I called Ava's old preschool because she's been asking to visit there and we went for a visit and she was so happy to see her old teacher she started to cry. It broke my heart in a thousand pieces. Ava is hypersensitive and her new school has 20 kids in the class and I think sometimes she is overlooked because she is quiet and the teachers are a bit overwhelmed with other behavioral issues in other kids. Whereas her old school on full day had 12 kids with 3 teachers. They are very old school and do super cool projects but I needed the extra money. But in the scheme of things is this all worth it? As I'm sitting there watching Ava play in her old school today, the teacher said to me, if you want a job, I'll give you one. I really do not know what to do. I think it would be better for Ava all around if I switched her to her old school but the thing is, I have nowhere to put Lily because she is not 2.9 until November. The old teacher said she would be willing to take Lily and just pray the licensing board does not make an appearance. But, then I'm uncomfortable putting her in that position. Augh. I just do not know. I know in my heart Ava will do better in her old school...so I guess I have to do that. If you've read this far, thanks so much. I miss coming here so much and I really don't mean to lurk. I did not know where else to turn, really. Thanks for listening, mamas.