God, I hope my kid isn't thinking this in his head right now. I mean, I want him to want me, but not when I can't be there. The daycare just called and left a message while I was at lunch, they just wanted to "let me know" that DS doesn't seem to be feeling well. That he's been crying (out of norm for him) and cranky and just all around acts sick. I don't have to come pick him up, just thought I should know (read: come pick him up). He's had a runny nose for the last few days, but he's a daycare kid, he's had that for the last 9 months. It had finally cleared up for about a month, but now it's back. I can't just leave work, neither can my DH. He does get off before me, so he'll pick him up as soon as he can. I'm already taking tomorrow off, DS has a check-up and DH and I were going to have a date day. Now I'm not so sure. And then I feel crappy for hoping that he's not sick tomorrow so we can spend some time alone. Argh, this sucks! This shit is why we want to move! So I can be home with him, or so we at least have family close by to help. Here we have no one.
And I just keep picturing DS being all pitiful and just wanting mama to hold him and rock him so he can sleep. Poor baby.
I just needed to vent, I feel like shit when this stuff happens. I shouldn't have to feel bad about wanting to go take care of my sick kid. He shouldn't have to deal with being sick without his parents. This sucks.