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Welcome back, old friendSubmitted by BeforeDreaming on Sat, 06/07/2008 - 9:51pm.
I got my period today, for the first time, in like 15 months. I'm feeling kind of melancholy about it. BeforeDreaming's blog | login or register to post comments | email this page | printer friendly version
i'm eating a honey bran muffin and drinking a cup of coffee as i type this! i need my period, i friggin' count on that sucker to show up! it also balances me out, and i need the release. they seem shorter and more intense these days. 15 months is a long time! jonah is getting bigger, time is flying! hearts to you, dc a seeker, a dreamer, a channeler and a part time destroyer! 15 months is good though. It also may go away again. I got mine, then it disappeared for months again. On the other hand, bleeding is supposedly why women live longer--the bleeding helps protect against oxygen's detrimental effects. ***the United States is one of only four out of 168 countries studied to not have some form of paid family leave for new moms. We join Swaziland, Papua New Guinea, and Lesotho in not having that policy in place. *** |
The day it came back, I sat on the edge of the bath tub with the door closed and cried hard. Not because I hate having a period (I do) but because it signalled the end of something that I couldn't put a finger on. I felt like I belonged less to Baby F with a period. It heralded the end of my fairytale time of pregnancy, birth, nursing, and nurturing only F. And it meant it was time for me to become my own person again. I suppose I should have felt happy about that, but I didn't and sort of felt the period was an intrusion into a state of being that I really loved inhabiting. Those feelings have mellowed, but after my fourth period I still feel a little wistful about my pre-period self.