friday was a more than a little stressful. i have felt stressed lately, home with all three girls while my husband is working and volunteering and fixing the house.
anyway our car failed inspection due to the old tires. on friday i spent our last dime on new tires.... went grocery shopping, cleaned the house, packed up the family and headed to our friend's house 3 hours away to celebrate her graduating from college. we were about 15 minutes from her house (at about 8:30pm) when our car died, as in shit the bed, as in, its time to make funeral arrangements.

oh fuck, we're fucked.

it makes me wish i hadnt filled up the tank, or spent over 400 bucks on new tires. it makes me wish i had taken the car to our usual mechanic last week, instead of trying to make our lives a little easier and going to the mechanic within walking distance to our house.

our car was towed to a lot, they will check and see if it is truly fucked. dont have money for the tow or for the repair. we rented a van and drove directly to work. (cant afford the rental) my family hung out all night while i distracted myself from the anxiety and worked.

over the next few days we'll watch the checks bounce high. the proposed economic stimulus could really help me out right now. it was due to arrive a week ago, but they are backed up. it was going to be the money we needed to finish the renovations on the last apartment so that we could get it rented out.

obviously, we have no money for a new car. i think we are ready to go carless. it is nice being in town and being able to walk and bike and ride the bus. it will be tricky getting myself to work in the middle of the woods. we'll see what happens with that.

deep breath...