hey mamas, i am hoping you can hold my hand and walk me through this. i need to get ready to bottle feed my babe.

here's the story: i went back to work (waitressing) when my little girl was only 2 weeks old. i'll tell you, i didnt do it for my health. our financial situation is so very tight, it was just a necessity. i didnt want to go back to work but i was grateful that i had a place where i could work with my baby girl and a place that i was happy to be at. i waitress with tilly in the sling.

customers are totally enchanted by her. she is comfy, happy and healthy close to me, and i let friends hold her when she is happy to be held.

well last night my boss told me it is time for tilly to graduate out of the sling. some customer (laywer) freaked him out at the end of the night when he stressed that having a baby in the dining room is a liability.... this point is silly, but i understand that people are strange, that this is by nature, a temporary solution, that i am not 100% waitress when i am working with her in the sling. my boss is happy to have her in the resturant provided somebody can hold her while i work.

so there are a handful of people who would be happy to hold her. it is difficult for me to coordinate yet, one more element to our lives, but i'm a mother, thats what i do. i could leave her at home, but i think my husband is not quite ready to have all 3 girls solo. once tilly is a bit older he will be able to manage, but right now i would rather avoid that pressure.

back to the bottle debate... there will be one, maybe two times during a shift when tilly will want to eat. i was never very successful pumping before. it was incredibly stressful with very little return. this time around i definetly do not have the time or space to pump. so for those one or two bottles, 2 or 3 nights a week, i think i need to bottle feed tilly. i wish there was another way, but i am trying to not have this become a stressor. i am trying to roll with it gracefully. she will continue being a happy and healthy baby when she receives a couple bottles of formula.

so, do any of you mamas have a favorite formula? i am hoping to find something organic. ny favorite bottles?