Mother's Day is balls (a bit ranty).
Submitted by BeforeDreaming on Sun, 05/11/2008 - 2:53pm.
What do I want for mother's day?
Cloth diapers and some sleep.
I'm so effing broke right now, I can't afford to buy another bag of these disposables. I applied for Miracle Diapers, but they're so backed up right now, it could be months. I want to go hiking with my kids today, but my older son is still asleep and I know he'd rather not venture out.
My mom just called me to lay the same trip on me that she always does. She feels forgotten. It's the same story every damn holiday and especially Mother's Day. I'm so tired of this guilt trip. Hey lady, you raised us to be this emotionally disengaged from one another. This is just how it is. Let's let each other off of the hook and not pretend it's different.
And further more,I don't want to go over there because she's homebrewing beer all day and I'm sober. I can't afford the gas to get to her house right now. I can't afford flowers. Heck, I can't even afford the gas to get to the grocery store so that I can use my food stamps and WIC. I'm tired. Bleh.
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Thank all of you fantastic mamas for your words and offers of support. It really helped get me through the day knowing that I had some rad mamas rooting for me.
I ended up hiking with DD12 and Jonah along our local rail trail and then DD surprised me with lunch at our fave cafe right around the corner. I've just been trying to focus on how blessed I am to have such amazing children (and supportive mama friends!) and not worry so much about the guilt I am experiencing as a result of my mom's stuff. I found out that my brother, nephew, and sis in law spent last night with her. How can she feel abandoned if she is spending time with family and we are all calling her to wish her a happy day? It's insane, her expectations of us are so unrealistic! Sorry about the rant... Thanks again!