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I love my girls, but damn I don't like them right now....my vent sessionSubmitted by hollygolightly on Mon, 05/05/2008 - 12:12am.
Ava is 3.5 and Lily is 2 and holy shit, they are demons right now. If I am not disciplining Ava for her fresh mouth, I am disciplining Lily for pulling her sister's hair, hitting, etc. I am so tired of trying to keep my cool, be positive, that this weekend, I lost it. Half of it was my frustration that since going back to work, I miss them terribly and I do not want to spend my time fighting with them; the other half is no matter if I'm at work or at home, I still want to raise good people and I do not want to fall into the trap of faltering as a parent because I feel guilty. So while both were screaming at the top of their lungs, I crumpled to the floor, screamed and started to cry. (I should say this is not the first time, but it has not happened in a very long time.) They both stopped and were somewhat quiet. DH came in, gave me a huge hug, and finished where I left off. Augh, this parenting stuff is hard! hollygolightly's blog | login or register to post comments | email this page | printer friendly version
I just have the 1 and some times I think the very same thing, that I just don't like him at that moment. "If Barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?" I've been having a really hard time lately too. DS is 3.5 also, holy SASS. DD is a sweet, lovely one year old who tears the entire house apart. She cannot be alone for even one second without finding something to destroy or something dangerous to hurt herself with. There is no childproofing for this kid, and she is a climber, too. I'm sick and feeling so crummy and at the end of my rope....having a really hard time being the mom I want to be. It is hard. Lucky thing is, it's ok for them to see us feel these feelings. They know what it's like to meltdown and feel awful and out of control. It's ok for them to know that we have those feelings too. You didn't hurt anybody, you just showed them about being human. Good for you mama. Hugs and love being sent your way. the 14 month old is up every 1.5 hours at night to nurse. ENOUGH! When I got fed up with it and just held her, baby sobbing but safe, DH got all grumpy that we were keeping everyone else up, and I needed to wait (until when!? unti I commit infanticide!?) I love nursing, but not lately. I.want.to.sleep. 3.5 year old was acting a disaster this morning. I yelled at everyone and cried before 9am YAY! hang tight buddy, you're doing a great job! shit gets stressful, time starts to slip by, tempers flare, this happens to all of us. there's nothing wrong with being at the end of your rope! i'm glad that dad did his thing, he knew how to help and what to do. do what you can babe, you'll ride this one out, and things will get better. i think the girls are on point, at their age, the clashing/bickering, etc. goes on. you already know this, but i think that someone should say it. it's got nothing to do what with you're doing or not doing. this is just what sisters do! (sometimes!). we love you - try not to worry too much. i've got your hand, i'm squeezing it, can you feel it? hearts of fire, dc is here! a fire breathing/green scaled mistress production! thank goodness dh was there to lend a hand! those ages are not easy by themselves and then there you are dealing w/ them at the same time and going back to work full time, whew! breathe, hang tight. thinking of you!!! thanks for your encouragement to me so right back atcha!! xoxo Love is all fun and games until someone loses an eye or gets pregnant. - Jim Cole I have days like this too. Sending some love, good mama. |
Thanks, mamas for all of your advice and support. It is invaluable.
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