Last week, in a passionate flare of pms inspired ire, I pretty much told my boss and her secretary that i'm toxically dissatisfied with my work environment and persuing other options. The secretary tried to tell me that the reason why i haven't earned a living this school year was because i told them that i couldn't work mornings, whereas my coworkers declared that they were available from 9am to 9pm no problems no limitations. I looked my boss in the face and said I knew that wasn't true because i know for a fact that my coworkers have also had their hours and salaries cut and aren't earning a living. Then i asked "would i have worked enough morning hours to compensate me for the childcare and earn a little extra too?- because PAYING for the privelege of working isn't in my or my child's best interest." My boss admitted that i would have payed more in childcare than i would have earned.
Later in the conversation my boss told me that she needs to know whether i'm staying or not as soon as possible because they're counting on me. I told her that what concerns me is whether or not i can count on them.
Feuled by my intense anger after the whole tone that the secretary took with me in the argument, and because i the next day i eavesdropped a similar conversation between the secretary and my coworker- so now i know for sure that nobody is happy there. I went on phase two of Barcelona area job hunt.
We went to a city 1hr 15min train ride from barcelona and 45 min train ride from the village where we would want to live if we made the big move. I got one interview in the moment and she says she'll review the sure thing classes she has lined up and make me a formal offer detailing schedules and salary this week. A man that i hit it off with who chatted me up and said he'll be calling me for a formal interview this week or next.
Then we spent all day yesterday with my husband's three brothers and their six kids going to market and the pool. It was so nice to be with family and chat things up while we did a sort of informal rotation of who was watching after the kids. It was relaxing to know that there were 7 adults on the alert in case my kid decided to go apeshit. When we said we were coming to spread my resume around two different sister in laws said "why don't you leave the baby with us, we'll..." We decided to take him with us, but it was just awesome that they offered.
I think my current employer will make me an offer, i think it will be better but not good enough. Vibes that some offer comes up on the other side that is really worth it and can convince us to move again (for the fourth time in 5 years.) Because i really think it could be great to be nearer to the city and nearer to my husband's family.

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Huge good wishes to you! It sounds like you are doing the right thing!!
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I really hope something works out for you in the city. It does sound wonderful if you could be closer to family and motorboy could see his cousins and aunts & uncles. And plus you've been unhappy at your current place for awhile now & it seems to be getting WORSE not better. Good luck!!!
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