Adrian Michael arrived on 08/08/08 at 0830 am. He weighed 10 lbs, 7 oz, has dark hair and grayish blue eyes and was 20 inches long...we dunno if he'll end up having brown or not at this point.

The c/s was complication free...and my tubes are officially TIED!

...as I have none to give. My friend is 29, married, living in a blended family. She has 2 children from a previous relationship; her husband has 1 child from his last marriage. They've been together for a little over 2 years. Friend's boys live with her and the husband full time, and the husband's son comes up to stay in summers only. --read more >>

I know I've had a "big family" debate before, and I know that it all boils down to personal choice, but still...the Duggar family is expecting their 18th baby, which to me just seems...well, wow. I can't imagine it. Having five is a scary prospect. I'm sure, after awhile, they all keep each other occupied...and it IS nice to have a support system...I just wonder how the children can learn their individuality in a family that is a required to be a system of sorts. --read more >>

Wow. It doesn't seem like it's that close, but 08/08/08 is next Friday. DH is taking leave starting on Thursday of this week and it lasts for a little over a month...we'll have family here for the first week...they're coming on Thursday as well to help more with the older ones than the baby, so I don't have to worry about trying to find ppl to watch the kiddos while I'm recovering from the c-section.--read more >>

So, I've got a confession to make: I've been lurking about. I wanted to get my head together some before I got back online, so all my blogs wouldn't be QUITE so negative...I hope that it'll be better, so here goes:--read more >>

...still have bouts of anxiety here and there, but I got 8-count em- 8!- full hours of sleep last night without relying on meds like Tylenol PM or Ambien or Benedryl! I think my issues with my family's addiction to meds and my father's own history of bipolar made me more fearful than anything else...so I was possibly afraid to accept what was going on around me. I feel alive for the first time in a long time, dare I say it? Even hopeful. I can't thank you Mamas (Special Hugs to goldie in fact) for giving me support when I needed it most. So here's some early morning grats...--read more >>

I know Haldol is supposed to work fast, since it is an antipsychotic. It's not one of those meds that has to build up in your system like an antidepressant would...but all I can say is WOW. My anxiety level has dropped dramatically over these last couple of days. The Lamictal, however, is one of those meds that has to build a level to be theraputic, so I am left wondering if my mood shift is becuase of the Haldol alone or if it's a relief to finally to be on a course of action. --read more >>

I went to the shrink yesterday. It was interesting, to say the least. I have been diagnosed now with bipolar I disorder, not based on what's going on now exactly...but because of episodes that happened as a teenager and in my early twenties. --read more >>

He died yesterday, at age 71. He is definitely one of my most favorite comedians, and he will be missed greatly. I actually cried when I read about it this morning, something I should've, but didn't, expect. The day is absolitely a little off now.

And by idiot box I mean "TV".

I've been back into "Weeds", because I can't get enough. Catching onto "Dexter" pretty quickly..."NCIS" reruns, "So You Think You Can Dance", "SuperNanny" and "Wife Swap".

I feel like a dork loving TV so much right now, but you gotta remember I'm on bedrest...so I'm stuck with books, TV, and chillin'...and of course, hipmama...

So, for those that do watch some TV...whatcha watching?

It's been a long, hard road, and I don't know how to fix THIS.

I saw the psychologist...she thinks I may have bi-polar disorder.

Why?

Here are some symptoms I am having:

1) Massive fluctuations in my mood. Since I am pregnant, I question this. Aren't there ALWAYS massive fluctuations in mood while pregnant? However, I HAVE been getting really angry really quickly. I'll cry constantly depending on the day...--read more >>

I've slowly dviulged my babes identities on here, but I will now take the chance to introduce them properly and explain where their names came from (even though I may work up to ho'in)...Last names are left out

1) Amanda Lindsey: she was very easy to name. Loved it. Lindsey was in tribute to Lindsey Buckingham, my favorite guitarist.
2) Roman Anthony: Loved the old-fashioned refernces to the Church, loved the Italian sound. It flowed well.--read more >>

Yes, TMI. --read more >>

Yay! I have Grats!

1. Got the insurance money. FINALLY. The first one was a check, but my direct deposit was set up, so the rest will be coming that way beginning Thursday.
2. DH is skipping his bowling tonight to take kiddos roller skating for their end of school thing, because I can't, for obvious reasons I get to watch the kiddos flop around on wheels.
3. Going to the shrink tomorrow!
4. Tomorrow is Amanda and Roman's last day of kindergarten. We made it through alive!
5. Been sleeping about 5-6 hours straight per night. Quite an accomplishment --read more >>

May 30, 2002 dawned clear, somewhat wonderful; the morning was absolutely stunning from the view of my parents' mountain home. The slopes of the Appalachians dipped and bent in spendid shades of green; the Junebugs buzzed around our yard, and I sat on the poarch swing, wondering about the babies I carried inside of me. They were 36 weeks gestation, and they were active that morning. --read more >>

Dragon Chic's boner blog made me feel very thankful for NOT being a boy/man this morning. I guess that dood didn't have a problem with moving is hardened junk all over, and I guess that could be considered...well, I dunno what to consider it, but I do agree that maybe maintaining your cover would've been a good idea

Anyway, I was thinking about the comment I laid down on that blog, stating I was thankful for being a woman so I wouldn't have to deal with all the boy stuff: erections, wet dreams, male masterbation, etc. Not fun subjects by any means, well at least not with my kiddos --read more >>

...since I am due in August, and I get to pick a day for my scheduled c/s, I have been thinking about what day to have him born. Granted, I know that it might change due to my medical issues, but if not, I can have him the first week in August.

We are naming him after DH's best friends, one from high school and one from our last base. Both of them committed suicide; I know it is bleak-sounding, but he wants to bring positive thoughts to the names instead of all the pain that they caused. --read more >>

**What the hell was this teacher thinking? I copied this from aol.com...unfortunately, this happened not far from where I live**:

It sounds like somebody has been watching too many reality shows. Namely, Wendy Portillo, a teacher at Morningside Elementary in Port St. Lucie, Florida. She turned her kindergarten classroom into a cruel version of Survivor by allowing her students to vote a fellow student out of the class.--read more >>

...I blogged awhile back re: my kids arguing, especially my oldest son. I think I finally figured out how to get it down to a minimum, but I dunno if this is "ok":

I laid down the law two mornings ago, telling them all, "If you decide to argue, Mama isn't talking to you until you can talk to me without fighting. I will be happy to tell you guys WHY I am doing things, but I will not fight about it anymore. You can talk to each other normally or to me normally, or not at all."--read more >>

Good morning ladies...--read more >>

This comes off mamaniac's blog about "When Do They Stay Dry Through the Night?" It got me to thinking about how I watch my children, especially my oldest two. Since they are fraternal twins, I play with my pre-conceived notions of what twins "should" be...and they get destroyed, happily, every time. When A does things that are more introspective and logical and R lets his tendency for bombast overrule his brain, I see the classic boy vs. girl images, not "twins should be symbiotic" thing. In ways, they are eerily alike.--read more >>

Granted, I work(ed) in a hospital, so some of the stuff I see on there (just like my military husband when he watches military movies and TV shows...BTW, can you believe there is a "Military Channel"?) is bogus and NOT related to any kind of protocol I've ever executed...but it still is interesting and watchable.--read more >>

1. I didn't throw up today. Speaking from someone that couldn't keep water down on Friday, solids yesterday, I am ecstatic about the BRAT diet today. Maybe tomorrow I'll graduate to mashed potatoes.
2. Baby A is still kicking about, happy as a clam.
3. Anti-nausea meds are great when necessary. Nuff said.
4. DH and kids cleaned the entire house yesterday and brought me applesauce in bed.
5. R and A were singing along to my "Monster Ballads" CD today. Very cute to listen to my twins sing "More Than Words". --read more >>

Well, after a long week of mountains of dr's appts, HTN again, and non-stop puking on Friday, I found out at the end of my week that I have a "classical" c-section incision and will not be able to VBAC after all. Since my last son was born via emergency c-section, I had no idea what incision I had, and I had to await my medical records to come in where I'd lived previously...

Well, they finally came in, and I got the news. Needless to say, I am not the happiest about it, but what's important is that my son is healthy (and Mama doesn't hemorrhage). --read more >>

This will be my first set of grats...and I feel like with all my negativity lately, I should be thankful for what I do have:

1) Tomorrow is my (now weekly) dr's appt. I get out of the house for a little while!
2) I FINALLY got 6 hours of sleep at once last night, and I got a nap today!
3) I'm making roasted whole chicken for supper tonight with cornbread stuffing and roasted potatoes and green beans. Yum!
4) Tax break money will be here Friday! I'm buying some books!--read more >>