This has been my best christmas since i have been in spain. I was with my Dh's family and I made them all great hand sewn gifts that they really appreciated. The kids loved their stuffed kittens and ran around playing with them and it was really sweet and fun. It was so great to be with family on christmas.
But all I really wanted for christmas was to be pregnant. So much so that I spent two weeks hand sewing a fertility doll to do a big full moon ceremony complete with hot sex to celebrate that my fertility was alligned with the closest full moon of the year. -- read more >>

That I didn't really need the gift she sent.
Here's the story: My mom is sending me boxes of gifts- which is so cool because i love getting mail from the states. But she didn't bother to ask me what i want. She knows that we are really broke so she is trying to send us things she thinks we need.-- read more >>

Came out pretty good. Check out DH with baby cotton body.

Now we just gotta make a real baby to put in it.-- read more >>

I'm so happy that we won, and what a win!
Only got an hour before that stupid interview i gotta get pretty.
Thanks to everybody who worked for change or even just got out there and voted.
i'm sorry that i even doubted.

And man, can my mother in law cook!
We had a great time at the concert. It was total expatriate land. Tons of costumes. I think mine was the best, but there was a way cool smurfette there and a Sara Palin- they were great too. We bought a new cd of a band with a really cool accordian player.
I should have some subway hos in the near future, but none of the actual party because my brother in law was on camera duty and was way too busy getting wasted and pathetically hitting on girls who were obviously not interested to take any pictures. -- read more >>

Here I am in the finished costume!

That's my gourd bag!-- read more >>

Yeah, I sent out my absentee ballot today. Express mail so it should get in with plenty of time. So now i have fulfilled my patriotic duty (in my own paltry long distance way).
I am smoking again. It started with just one when my period started early this month. I am keeping it down to only 1-3 per day but i know that i am so not in control of it, because all day i want to smoke like crazy. It is really tough because while DH doesn't ¨smoke tobacco¨ he always has some cigarettes to make spliffs with and i either ransack the house to find them or badger him until he gives me one.-- read more >>

to make the wig for my costume for a holiday that NOBODY even celebrates here. Does that make me pathetic- or brilliant- or both?-- read more >>

2 eggs
1 banana
100 g butter
~3/4 c milk
200 g flour
2in. fresh ginger root grated and pealed
2 tbsp sugar or sugar substitute (optional)

preheat oven to very hot (i use mine as high as it will go, but my oven is so old that the numbers are all worn off so i don't know how hot that is- but it isn't 500 because my pitas don't rise or cook as fast as they did when i had a better oven)

Blend butter, banana, ginger, one of the eggs, and enough milk to make the blender move more easily until more or less creamy-- read more >>

Or is it that i am crazy today? I am really not so great at this ttc stuff.
OK so given that my last fertile mucus day was the thursday that we came home from menorca, period day should be this thursday. Lots of hot hot sex and relaxation in Menorca so chances are decent that there could be a baby in there right? I would so love to be able to tell dream baby that s/he was conceived on an island. -- read more >>

Here we were in the setting sun in Menorca. OMG it was so great. It really mellowed me out and now i am so much calmer and it doesn't seem like such an insurmountable deal that the school year is beginning.
We went to the beach and swam in the sea and did nothing important all day! Check out the scenery:-- read more >>

First thing is that the pregnancy test was right, i am sooo not pregnant. I must have been pukey because the cold that i have now was coming on. Now i have my rag early and unmistakeably. Which was making me a little sad.
But it is hard to be sad when you are going to menorca. -- read more >>

Negative like a cathedral (which is a saying here for something that cannot possibly be confused for anything else). I know that i said i wasn't going to test until thursday (rag due wednesday) but i broke down because the last three days i have been feeling pukey, especially in the mornings. I thought if i have enough hormones to be pukey i should have enough hormones to check positive.
So now the question is why am i feeling pukey?
could the test be wrong?-- read more >>

Is that the pregnancy tests are way f'in' expensive! There is NO such thing as otc medicine here. You can't even buy band-aids at the dollar store, much less pregnancy tests. You have to go to the pharmacy for anything even remotely medical. At 15 euros a pop i can't afford to have a home pregnancy test until my rag is actually late, but if my ttc takes long we could have some expensive months here. Isn't there some kind of like bill nye the science guy litmus test i could do with cactus juice or some shit? -- read more >>

Thanks bitch face! I really needed someone to say they were interested.
these are the latest diapers that i have sewn:

Yay for too tight courderoys! Yay for my mom sending me a box of fancy flannel!
These are my wool covers:-- read more >>

Sorry i'm whining, but i need somebody to whine to because none of my friends get it.
Dh and i started to ttc just this cycle and i am allready over it. Why does patience take so long to learn? Now i'm in the second half of my cycle and i'm like obsessively touching my breasts and checking the position of my cervix like some kind of freak trying to guess if i am tku (totally knocked up), as dh likes to think i am. And my rag isn't even due until the 17th so it's way too early to know anyway.
Any advice for how to be calm about this?-- read more >>

garbage free desk chair before:

snazzy new desk chair after:
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I know this is a silly question, but is there anything you regret not having done before you had kids? Now, because i am more interested in the answers than in personal advice you can just answer that question. Or if you are interested in all my personal blah blah blah you can read what i am thinking here (probably long and boring(sorry).

When i was chomping at the bit to get started ttcing some mamas told me that i should relax a little and enjoy life before kids, but at the time i wasn't really able to because i was just so torn up about the mc.-- read more >>

Check out baby cotton body in her new blue fitted pocket diaper and hand crocheted booties.

two weeks ago i got ¨la maquina sofia¨-- read more >>

I told dh that i needed more information about when we could start trying for a kid and he told me 9/11. Apparently because this is the day when he should have a lot of answers about things that are bothering him as unknowns now- his partial disability, a project grant that we just finished writing together, a job that he applied for. -- read more >>

Ok, so i am super emotional, dog-dead tired, tender breasted, and strangely constipated with a tender addomen. Which sounds like ¨oh blessed day, I am finally knocked up again¨, but is actually, for me, my very same list as my pms symptoms.

I remember when i was pregnant, the first time I said anything to dh i was all like ¨my period is 3 days late, but i`m not worried about it because i have such bad pms i'm sure i'm going to blood stain my panties any minute now¨.

This is like a repetitive cruel monthly joke since my miscarriage.-- read more >>

So you know i am working this day camp for kids, and it's the first year that i am doing it. And everyday we have one hour of crafts time. We have done some really cool stuff. THe most recent was celebrity masks to do celebrity interviews while we were working on question words and grammar.
Check it out:
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We took our summer camp kids to Marineland. It was really cool.

I totally cried when i took this picture. Thinking about how the only thing cooler than taking a bunch of stanger's kids to marineland (which is not to say that i don't know and love these kids) would be taking your own kids to marineland.-- read more >>

Yeah we are infested by mutant bugs. They don't look like lice or fleas but rather like some mutant hybrid of the two. They are on the cats and on our heads. They itch like crazy and i think it is actually them that gives me the rash- call me the canary in the coal mine of our mutant bug infestation.
this is my idea:
serious vacuuming and orange oil deep cleaning
anti parasite pills for the cats- I've got two that are half feral and won't let us put any kind of product on them- the only way to do it is mix it up with their food.-- read more >>

Remember how i said i had decided that if i have to have my stupid period for a while i should at least soak it up with style? Here they are, Super Sexy new pads:

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