Or is it that i am crazy today? I am really not so great at this ttc stuff.
OK so given that my last fertile mucus day was the thursday that we came home from menorca, period day should be this thursday. Lots of hot hot sex and relaxation in Menorca so chances are decent that there could be a baby in there right? I would so love to be able to tell dream baby that s/he was conceived on an island. --read more >>

Here we were in the setting sun in Menorca. OMG it was so great. It really mellowed me out and now i am so much calmer and it doesn't seem like such an insurmountable deal that the school year is beginning.
We went to the beach and swam in the sea and did nothing important all day! Check out the scenery:--read more >>

First thing is that the pregnancy test was right, i am sooo not pregnant. I must have been pukey because the cold that i have now was coming on. Now i have my rag early and unmistakeably. Which was making me a little sad.
But it is hard to be sad when you are going to menorca. --read more >>

Negative like a cathedral (which is a saying here for something that cannot possibly be confused for anything else). I know that i said i wasn't going to test until thursday (rag due wednesday) but i broke down because the last three days i have been feeling pukey, especially in the mornings. I thought if i have enough hormones to be pukey i should have enough hormones to check positive.
So now the question is why am i feeling pukey?
could the test be wrong?--read more >>

Is that the pregnancy tests are way f'in' expensive! There is NO such thing as otc medicine here. You can't even buy band-aids at the dollar store, much less pregnancy tests. You have to go to the pharmacy for anything even remotely medical. At 15 euros a pop i can't afford to have a home pregnancy test until my rag is actually late, but if my ttc takes long we could have some expensive months here. Isn't there some kind of like bill nye the science guy litmus test i could do with cactus juice or some shit? --read more >>

Thanks bitch face! I really needed someone to say they were interested.
these are the latest diapers that i have sewn:

Yay for too tight courderoys! Yay for my mom sending me a box of fancy flannel!
These are my wool covers:--read more >>

Sorry i'm whining, but i need somebody to whine to because none of my friends get it.
Dh and i started to ttc just this cycle and i am allready over it. Why does patience take so long to learn? Now i'm in the second half of my cycle and i'm like obsessively touching my breasts and checking the position of my cervix like some kind of freak trying to guess if i am tku (totally knocked up), as dh likes to think i am. And my rag isn't even due until the 17th so it's way too early to know anyway.
Any advice for how to be calm about this?--read more >>

garbage free desk chair before:

snazzy new desk chair after:
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I know this is a silly question, but is there anything you regret not having done before you had kids? Now, because i am more interested in the answers than in personal advice you can just answer that question. Or if you are interested in all my personal blah blah blah you can read what i am thinking here (probably long and boring(sorry).

When i was chomping at the bit to get started ttcing some mamas told me that i should relax a little and enjoy life before kids, but at the time i wasn't really able to because i was just so torn up about the mc.--read more >>

Check out baby cotton body in her new blue fitted pocket diaper and hand crocheted booties.

two weeks ago i got ¨la maquina sofia¨--read more >>

I told dh that i needed more information about when we could start trying for a kid and he told me 9/11. Apparently because this is the day when he should have a lot of answers about things that are bothering him as unknowns now- his partial disability, a project grant that we just finished writing together, a job that he applied for. --read more >>

Ok, so i am super emotional, dog-dead tired, tender breasted, and strangely constipated with a tender addomen. Which sounds like ¨oh blessed day, I am finally knocked up again¨, but is actually, for me, my very same list as my pms symptoms.

I remember when i was pregnant, the first time I said anything to dh i was all like ¨my period is 3 days late, but i`m not worried about it because i have such bad pms i'm sure i'm going to blood stain my panties any minute now¨.

This is like a repetitive cruel monthly joke since my miscarriage.--read more >>

So you know i am working this day camp for kids, and it's the first year that i am doing it. And everyday we have one hour of crafts time. We have done some really cool stuff. THe most recent was celebrity masks to do celebrity interviews while we were working on question words and grammar.
Check it out:
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We took our summer camp kids to Marineland. It was really cool.

I totally cried when i took this picture. Thinking about how the only thing cooler than taking a bunch of stanger's kids to marineland (which is not to say that i don't know and love these kids) would be taking your own kids to marineland.--read more >>

Yeah we are infested by mutant bugs. They don't look like lice or fleas but rather like some mutant hybrid of the two. They are on the cats and on our heads. They itch like crazy and i think it is actually them that gives me the rash- call me the canary in the coal mine of our mutant bug infestation.
this is my idea:
serious vacuuming and orange oil deep cleaning
anti parasite pills for the cats- I've got two that are half feral and won't let us put any kind of product on them- the only way to do it is mix it up with their food.--read more >>

Remember how i said i had decided that if i have to have my stupid period for a while i should at least soak it up with style? Here they are, Super Sexy new pads:

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Ilove seeing photos here of other people's families and kids. Sometimes it makes me feel envious, but usually it makes me feel all warm and gooey and hopeful inside. Since my miscarriage i am totally obsessed with babies and family. I mean i was starting to feel the pangs of babylust before i got pregnant, but to actually have that first taste of the glowing hopeful possibility just threw me into the depths of it. --read more >>

My local thrift store is having a major clearance sale- everything must go! Today I got 5 blouses (3 of which are from medium-big names- do you guys have adolfo dominguez there too?- not that that matters- but man they are SMART) a skirt, a hippy dress, A floppy straw hat, and one of the plasticified mattress covers(that looks like it is going to be good for making cloth pads because it is really flexible and doesn't make crinkly noises) All for 41,50 which when my ¨frequent buyer points¨ discount was taken out was only 31,50!

Here we are making whole wheat banana pancakes:

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I found this when i was looking for blighted ovum support groups.
¨Every time I conceive a new life in my womb, my heart expands exponentially to create a home for that child and my mind stretches wide open to welcome a new life into my life. Every time I lose a baby from my womb, my heart and mind are left with a gaping emptiness I don't know how to fill.¨
That's where i am still at, nursing the black fuckin hole in my empty empty uterus.--read more >>

This is the new chapter in my ongoing struggle to process my miscarriage.
My baby lust has gotten envious and judgementally ugly.--read more >>

In catalan this is a saying that means ¨your period fixes everything¨ and simultaneously means ¨the rule that everything turns out all right¨. These are the kind of things that i love about language learning.--read more >>

I don't know how to post photos, but i'd like to, because i've got some photos of some diapers and baby booties that i made just in case i ever do get my baby.

So i know that i have allready verbally vomitted my weepiness about my miscarriage this april, and i feel strangely guilty for writing about it again... like "what you aren't over that yet?¨ I think mainly because when i try to talk about it that's the response that i get, or maybe the one that i feel like i am getting.--read more >>

Hey crafty ladies! I just got some work doing classes at a day camp during july! This is awesome because it will keep me from starving in August...(i'll have to work something else out for september and october).
Anyway, I will be doing 1 hour of straight up english classes doing revision of materials that they should have been learning during the school year (which is just my cup of tea because i am an english teacher anyway.) And then I will do an hour of "Crafts and Games¨ where we do activities together that aren't classes, but where we communicate in english doing other things.--read more >>