Pneumonia SUCKS!! I have een sick for over a week now. I have even stooped so low as to take antibiotics, cough medicine and 2 inhalers. YUCKO!!!
Since I entered a blog. Shame on me!! I have become a MYSPACE whore!! I have been on Lexepro for a year now, and what a differance!! I feel great!! I manage stress so much better!! I have taken up yoga and have found a NEW LOVE in it!!
WOW!! I guess These meds were a step in the right direction! WHAT A DIFFERANCE!!! I go to the therapist in 2 weeks and I am so happy that I finally decided to accept that I was on a path of destruction... I feel so much more relaxed and able to deal with the day to day.
Thanks for the kind words Mammas!!!!
Well, Here I am. I have my beautiful 3 year old and my beautiful 1 year old; a somewhat kooky husband, (definately off center, but a hard worker and a great Dad), And I am so depressed and anxious I wound up in the Docs office yesterday crying like a baby.
He immediately whipped out the Rx pad and started writing. I also have an appointment with a therapist....
How did I get here??? I have always been strong and coping. BUT, since the kids, I am a wreck!!! Anxious about trivial things, SO angry before my period I scare myself and SO OBSESSIVE with certain details... none of which are of any consequence...
How 2 toddlers can wear you down!!!!! I still have 2 loads of laundry to do.
Part time work is GREAT!!!!! If I coudn't do that , the house would be a DISASTER ZONE!! DH helps when he can but he is working 10 plus hrs a day. My daughter is SO CLINGY when she is teething...(like now) and my son doesn't get the attention he deserves and then HE starts to act out. I feel like all I did was YELL at him all day. My poor little guy.
Tomarrow will be better!!!!!
I work out on a treadmill in our basement. I used to belong to a gym but cna't get away from kids anymore!!! My time away is work!!! (ha ha)
Men totally suck!! I worked second shift last night, (I am an ICU nurse), and had the night from HELL, only to come home to a TRASHED house. I AWAYS come home to a trashed house. Last night I just snapped. I mean, WTF? I work hard all night to then have to spend the first half hr home cleaning? HOW can any man in their right mind get his ass off of the couch, scratch is belly, look around at the toys, dishes, messy mess mess and say...."GOODNIGHT!!!" UGH!!!!
That eternal tiredness that comes with having little ones in the house.... I cannot even remember what it is like to have engery. I just started an organic, cleansing diet and I am trying to wo4rk out in some capacity every day. Perhaps that will help.... Then again, perhaps not flexing my time at work so much and not having my daughter wake me up at night would also help!!! Yawn.... And sex life? What is that? Lately, I'd rather sleep.....
Let's see....how to catch up....
Well, I have a baby gril now... Did I blog that before? Not sure...
Anyway.. Life sure is interesting with 2 kidlets. BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!!
Luckily, my Dh is a great help...well... most of the time.
Back to work thank god we can afford part time. I really admire all Moms who work full time and I really, really, reaaly admire those single Moms out there. WOW!!!
Kids are great... eric has hit the terrible twos and spends more time in time out than out of time out... *sigh*
All in all things are good. Just trying to get that baby weight off....
The baby has decided to plant herself on my sacrum.. . OUCH!!!!! I also have developed sciatica. DOUBLE OUCH!!! She better move off!!! I can't take this for 7 weeks. Not when I have a toddler to take care of!!! OUUUCH!!
...form one child to having 2 children. Will my 2 year old son adjust to his sister well? Will he change? He is so easy going and happy now...Will that change? I feel like after I have this baby, I am somhow seperating myself from my son, the love of my life now. Like I am somehow leaving or abandoning him.... I am SO NERVOUS!!!!! And yet SO READY to have this baby out of me!!!