Grats,
My kids
DH
DH baking bread all the time
My garden(gotta put up some pics of that!)
My work
Hipmama
Been look super hot lately and am grateful since soon I'll be as big as a house!

Fra in his new scarf, a Mama Special,

Emmet in his new scarf--read more >>

I am happy to announce that our family will be welcoming it's fourth child sometime this spring(end of April?).--read more >>

What if we kept the baby? Would that be wrong? would it be selfish?
Recently I told my daughter(when she was complaining about something being hard)that usally the hard stuff is the really worthwhile stuff. So I guess thats why this is so hard.
Mamas, you all so honest and thats what I need right now, honesty. Dh and I are way too emotionally involved.
Here's our situation.--read more >>

Okay, so thats a dumb statement, but thats how I feel right now. I'm mad and sad and frustrated. We have decided not to keeep the baby, but I'm not totally good with it. I do realize that if I really wanted to keep it and said so, DH would and he'd be great about. I feel our choice is being made completely on monetary level of the fact that we live rather tightly right now so DH can go to school, something that is SO important to me(and of course him) that I don't want to risk or change it. And #4 would mean a new car(grrr) and in the next three years expanding the house(3 bedrooms).--read more >>

No I haven't made a choice, but need some insite...
Please!

I'm pretty sure I'm pregnate, (yeah, see its so upsetting I can't even spell it). I feel like I am just getting on my feet, that DH and I are really good and solid(okay, we've alwasy been solid...but were good) and happy. And we have our little house and life is a nice groove and DH is finally going to school, and were are in this lovey groove with each other and so lots of sex(yes we used a condom) but fertility bunny I am...yeah, I'm pretty sure its true. What the fuck. I can't imagine keeping it, thats the truth.--read more >>

--anythoughts(unsauced)?

Because I am sure you have been all dying to know how my knitting is going. After unravelling a couple of times, lots of reading, sundry help from friends and family, I am about done with my first scarf. It is is blue, for Fra(blue eyes)...
But Emmet kindly modeled it as you see..
TA DA!

Eevn tho I am having alot of sadness and frustration about the way my sister is acting, I have a pretty great life right now..
so heres my grats--

Dh quit his job 6 weeks or so ago. He starts ART SCHOOL the 25th. He loves staying home with the kids and is--cooking, baking bread, playing with them, keep house clean all sorts of things and loving it. His school schedual is such that he has Mon-Thursday afterenoon, evs and we don't neeed a sitter. He gets to have all day with Fra and get the kids off to school, etc. This is Good Stuff!--read more >>

My Mom and DD and I went to Chicago for a weekend and had lots of fun and relaxing.
Heres some pics

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First day, we were walking along the Lake and Asher wanted to play, so why, not--right?--read more >>

I need lunch ideas for work--have access to fridge etc...
any thoughts?
Healthy! And Yummy!

Really, I just want to cry, this is a crappy week and I'm trying to keep my chin up but its not working. Two months ago my sister and I had a falling out(I blogged about her not emailing/returning my phone calls), she thinks I didn't care enough to call her on her birthday and has stopped speaking to me. I tried to call her, my cell doesn't make overseas phone calls and she was in Paris. Now its actaully not like my sister to do this, she IS NOT a drama queen, she does however suffer from some mental illness history and has done this sort of thing every few years.--read more >>

I have been trying to think of a way to write about Grandma and those days, but it seems like a blur , it is so different than any other experience I have ever had. When Grandpa died, it seemed somehow okay, it seemed like time, there was sorrow, but still this sense of laughter in the family, you know that sense, that no matter what we happy, we are lively, we are strong. There wasn’t that. There was nothing, I kept thinking “oh, she’ll love the way Asher talks, the way Emmet is playing with that truck, the way Fra is smiling.” I couldn’t, I can’t believe she wasn’t there.--read more >>

I'm learning to knit, I am Very Bad At It! But am enjoying it and surly will improve.
I feel I need to find something to relax, I have a hard time relaxing unless I'm doing something productive, so maybe this will help. Hmmm.
Any advice on this would be apreciated.--read more >>

I have a great life, a great husband(married 10 years, together 18!!), three fab kids, a job I love. And I am really happy, I am grateful, but I am also, well bored and restless. I want to go out with my girlfriends, dress sexy and drink a little too much, and flirt with strangers. I have a deep and dark desire to have a torrid affair one of a number of men I know. (one or two inparticular, but lets not go there)--read more >>

I am afraid I am too critical of my daughter. I'm a pretty critical person, I'll admit, I try not be, but I am. She is 7 1/2 going on 13, and I love her her to death--but she can drive me crazy. Where is the line between helping her act appropriatly and being too critical?--read more >>

My middle boy is 5--he is very proud of 5!
We had a great family party, then a great "friends" party--Emmet said it was perfect! Gotta love that! Heres some hos of my boy on his big day!

Looking like a presaidential canidate

Very Silly--read more >>

My zuccinni leaves look sorta moldy--like whitish stuff on them--but otherwise growing great! Should I do something? It is my first Zuccinni year...
Plus, we're organic...
any thoughts?

And I'm cheap, too. Give me your feedback, I need something new...

I feel so very very lucky to work where I do, the Art Center where I work is so amazing on so many levels, the beautiful Michael Graves desgined building, the 16 acres of gardens and sculptures with the White River behind it, the awesome art that passes through our doors, the great teachers and students and the staff that makes it happen--people who love thier jobs and believe in what we are doing!--read more >>

What can I get that actually will work?

Tuesday Plus $10, someone owed me money!
spent $0
Wed $10 gas to Brother for giving me a ride and taking my son to Art camp last week. He didn't want to take but I insisted.
Thursday--uh-oh $41 at the drugstore. Stuff I DIDN"T need.
Damn.
Howeveryone else doing?

Asher has been asking, I made her wait until she was outta school!

Groceries--$68.00
But will what we got last week we are set for two weeks of dinners, with a few produce/milk/bread runs. (Hey are are FIVE of us!)
Doing better meal planning these days.
Had a fun Father's day(will post pics!) and totally free fun--even better.

Help me out mamas!