for those of you who were wondering. For it all started with hm five years ago. We moved to Ptown in January! Yippe. Big kids are big.. Small ones are big. WE are doing dandy! here we are in pictures...

Yes I know it has been awhile. But truthfully after so long with one format and then switching to this it was kind of hard on my eyes.
Anyways, I am content in life. I think for once I have learned to be completely in the now. I am in this moment, in this day, and living it like it should be lived. Yup I have goals for my family of course, but know in order for those to be achieved you must be present in everyday life as well. The days fly by this way I must say. Before you know it it is 8 oclock and time for bed. Boredom is very irrelevant and if you are enjoying yourself like life is intended then you will be entertained with what you have. I think another definition is surrendering your whole being. If you think and feel that you are calm and happy the rest should fall into place. This time in our journey of motherhood is so so short in the realm of our lives. I am constantly reminded to soak up our children's lives and to accept and love what they give to us as people. Have a wonderful day fellow hipmamas. See you soon rythumsmama and ascederleaf. We will be there, just not camping in the same spot.

Who goes? Cause we are this year, and want to know which campgrounds to camp at with the chitlins. Country fair in Oregon to be specific. K Let me know ladies.

I got the poop out of the toilet. Mom. See.

I AM JUST NOW READING HARRY P O T T E R!!

Needing your vibes. I have never asked before now I am for this...

Which one of you has the little girl around e age(2 and 3 months) with extreme excema?

when they are nervous? Mine licks!! Our two year old that is.

Your question about what was the worst thing that has ever been said to you. And mine was my father telling me it was my fault he was a heroin user. About eight years ago he said this to me and I have been harboring it ever since. Only telling my husband. A Deep deep scar was left in it's place.

A wonderful hike, a cookies feast, and snuggles.

It was influenza B

My fever right now;102.

Baby viral pneumonia and puking while breastfeeding.yup

These were taken two days ago when it was 60. Now there is four inches of snow on the ground.ARgh.

My yummy little girls. The baby ones at least..

Have you ever been so eager to move that you can see yourself just taking off. I mean i won't leave my children or anything. But I have lived here for all my life and it really is time. I am pretty sure I was a gypsy in my past life. I was suppose to move around, I just know. I find myself looking at moving boxes during the day ready to pack them up. It really is ridiculous though with absolutly no jobs out there. We just can't do it right now. But jesus I want to GO. It is like someone is pushing me from behind not letting me be settled. I can not settle myself at all.

This is funny. Our 7 year old dd was watching me on hm just now. She said" who is that lady on the left side of the screen holding a baby" I said" oh that is the logo for the site now" She said "huh, she isn't very hip, she looks nothing like you mom!" hahah.

I thought Juniper would be satisfied with dh for a bit, and he really wants to do the comforting along with me. But tonight she wasn't having it. So I put her on the boob and stood at the stove finishing dinner. Which was from the depression era you tube video that someone posted yesterday. What have you done while breastfeeding?

I didn't think I would be in the room. But I make him come with me everytime, so I thought I should be there. He passed out with the initial shot of numbing stuff, but for like 5 seconds. He wants me to say not because of the pain, but from the thought of a needle near him. Start to finish it was 45 mintues. And really it was very fascinating watching the doctor do the snip. I was so excited when we left. Yipee! NO more birth control for the rest of my life!! Woot woot!

So dh is getting the snip on friday. And oh lordy is he acting as if this is the worst to ever happen. But at 4 weeks postpartum I have no sympathy for him AT ALL. I have tried to muster it up but it won't work. I mean for god's sake I broke bones getting her out of my VAGINA. I have given birth to his children four times with no meds at all! This takes 20 minutes and then he is done! Can't I just throw a bag of frozen peas at him and call it good? But boy will it be nice not having to worry about sex! Super excited about that. So how bad is it for the men? I mean really.

I have this thing, for finger monsters. I think they are great. I have them placed sporadically around the house. So the other day I said out of the blue "wouldn't it be great to have a huge jar on finger monsters?" They really are funny little creatures. They bring a smile to my face everytime. So the ups pulled up yesterday and a little box was delivered to me and my giggling husband. Suspiciously, I opened the little box. I had previously told him if he got my anything tacky I would throw it away. But instead inside the box were 75 little finger monsters. Hahaha.

She will be 3 wks old tomorrow. I am still in pain from tailbone fracture, and cramping, and so so in love. Isn't it truly a miracle that you are able to love another baby. I thought before she was born that really, a fourth, how could I love her like the other three. I thought this every time I had a baby. And just like that your heart grows another nodule, and voila, you are full of love once again. This recovery has truly been a rough one, and I am warned by the midwives everytime you have another baby it is a little rougher. Yup I find it true.

Chewy homemade granola bars. The hard ones hurt my teeth, anyone have a good recipe?

Until I feel strong enough to write the whole birth story this is my recovery so far. It is 10 days in and still in agonizing pain. As I said before labor was fast and furious. I gave birth squatting like a frog in the bathtub, which was wonderful and exactly like I wanted. She literally flew out of me. No control, my body overtook any rational thought I may have had. The force ended up fracturing my tailbone. So on top of recovering from childbirth I am dealing with a fractured tailbone. And it f-ing hurts!@ Like a bitch..

She was born this afternoon at 4:05 underwater at the birth center. It went so fast and I will describe it later, but got there at 2:15 had her at 4:05. She weighed 7lbs 9oz. And is absolutely perfect! I will tell her about the day she was born with so much pride for our world and her birth.!