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period question

Sat, 06/12/2004 - 18:24 -- Hazel Althea

For all you mamas who had difficult periods before your babes were born- were your post-baby periods better or worse? I think I may have just started my first post-baby period (kid is almost 15 months) and I have a history of painful periods. I have mixed feelings about the period thing. I wish I could be at peace with it, and feel all groovy and goddessy like a lot of women say they do while menstruating, but that has never been my experience.

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a day in the life...

Sat, 06/05/2004 - 17:34 -- Hazel Althea

It is cloudy and rainy here in good 'ol Bellingham, WA. Typical for this time of year, but it can be hard to deal with. I have this ridiculous notion that it is supposed to be warm and sunny once June hits.
I am starting my first ever vegetable garden in our front yard. It will be nice if this works out, and we can save a little cash on produce. I'd like to eventually be as self-sufficient as possible, and I think this is a step in the right direction.
My kid is running around the house naked,and loving every minute of it. Hope she doesn't poop on the carpet or furniture... She is a little holy terror, but the best thing that ever happened to me. That said, I have to vent about these fricking tantrums she has been having lately. Almost every time we go into a store, any store, she throws a fit. We were in Barnes and Noble this morning, and she threw the most horrible tantrum. She was literally screaming at the TOP OF HER LUNGS. People were staring, and one little kid was asking her mom why that baby was screaming. So embarassing. I try to just be mellow about it, and finish up what I'm doing quickly and get out of there, but sometimes that is so hard. I'm ashamed to say I really felt like shaking her to get her to quiet down. Of course I didn't, and wouldn't, but just the thought popping into my mind terrifies me. That I could get so angry at an innocent child who justifiably didn't want to be in a stroller or on my hip, but running around freely. There are just too many restrictions on little kids. It must be incredibly hard for them to understand. I would have loved to let her run around the store, but someone could grab her, or she could piss somebody off, or break something. It amazes me how un-child-friendly our society is. If every medium to large store had a safe, supervised place for the little ones to play while their parents shopped, the world would be a better place. There are a few places that have that in my area, but the sucky part is, I'm afraid to leave my kid with a total stranger while I grocery shop. What's a mom to do? If there are any moms in the area interested in possibly doing some child-care trade offs, let me know.

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online diaper/baby retailers

Sat, 05/22/2004 - 11:25 -- Hazel Althea

Luckylady's blog about cloth diapering, and the resulting blogs make me wonder about all the online diaper/children's products websites. What are your experiences with the different online retailers, good or bad. I would certainly like to know which ones to avoid, and which ones are deserving of my business.
Here's my 2 cents: one to avoid is earthbaby.com. Their service is either great, or you don't get your stuff or hear from them at all.
Two places I have had good experiences with are greenmountaindiapers.com, and granitesmith, who is an ebay seller. I got some pro-raps from her, and they showed up in a timely fashion.

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today

Thu, 05/20/2004 - 00:04 -- Hazel Althea

Today:
1) My little girl fell down one step into the laundry room and bruised her cheek, because I didn't latch the baby gate.
2) I felt a deep and consuming guilt.
3) I skipped yoga class because my perpetually late ass couldn't get out the door on time.
4) Did a buttload of laundry.
5 Talked with my recovering-alcoholic mom on the phone.
6) Felt guilty for not having sex with my husband last night.
7) Had sex with my husband.
8) Took a pregnancy test: one line.
9) Watched a wierd foreign film and ate a bag of microwave popcorn for dinner.
10) Wondered if my husband is keeping to his promise to only have two drinks while he's out tonight.

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Yoga

Mon, 05/03/2004 - 15:05 -- Hazel Althea

Hi y'all, I am thinking about taking some yoga classes, because I have heard it can help with relaxation and posture. For those of you who have tried the various types, what do you recommend? There is a Bikram yoga place in town, which I'm tempted to try, but a friend of mine says it can really kick your butt. I have heard that Ashtanga is good. There is also a place in town that has Iyenigar (spelling?) yoga, but I haven't heard anything about that type. Any input on your experiences would be great!

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up for grabs!

Sun, 05/02/2004 - 21:46 -- Hazel Althea

I have three brand new pairs of girls Oshkosh jeans size 2T that are too narrow in the waist for my little chunker. My aunt sent them, but alas,too small.
If anyone here can use them, I'll mail 'em to ya. My e-mail is

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paranoid mom question-is my kid "normal?"

Fri, 04/30/2004 - 20:10 -- Hazel Althea

A quick question about something that has been a little concerning for me: My 13 month old is a happy, healthy little person, but she rarely looks us in the face directly, and pulls away when we try to kiss her on the cheek. She seems normal in all other ways, but seems to dislike direct, face-to-face contact. I am worried that this may be an indication of ADD or a mild autism. I'm probably just being paranoid. It's probably just that she is a busy toddler, and has no time for kisses or eye contact. What do y'all think?

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WIC Woes

Fri, 04/30/2004 - 16:14 -- Hazel Althea

So my daughter and I had a WIC appt. today, to get her re-certified. And that means getting her height, weight, and a review of her dietary recall.
I don't know who lit the fuse on this lady's tampon, but the lady I got today for my appt. was super anal and was trying to tell me my baby was too fat. She grilled me on portioning of my daughter's food, and showed me her growth chart, telling me that her weight gain, and growth in length were not proportional. I just smiled a tight little smile, nodded my head, and got out of there as quick as I could. I should've told the be-yotch that my little girl is super healthy, happy, and typical of an extended-breastfeeding baby.

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THANKS

Mon, 04/26/2004 - 21:04 -- Hazel Althea

I wanted to thank everyone for their supportive and encourageing comments. They are much appreciated. I was having a VERY tough day that day, and needed to vent, and I am so glad that this forum is available for this purpose.
Hubby and I are in the process of looking for a counselor, to try and improve our communication, which is probably our biggest problem. I don't want y'all to think it's all awful, and that my hubby is a total prick (just a partial one,ha ha.) We definitely have our problems, but it's not all gloom and doom.
Anyway, thanks for sharing your stories and experiences.

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deep, dark depression

Sun, 04/25/2004 - 18:37 -- Hazel Althea

My 13 month old is in her highchair having a snack, and watching a Sesame Street video. The clothesline is full of clothes that need to be brought in and put away. There is a massive pile of dirty laundry in the laundry room, the cat litter box is atrocious, the guinea pigs have yet to be fed. My husband is at work, and will doubtless be in a foul mood when we go to pick him up at the end of his 14 hour shift tonight. He will probably stay up until the wee hours drinking beer in front of the computer.
I am a mother, and I feel like I should be happy. I have a wonderful daughter, and a home, and food in the fridge. More than a lot of people have. What I do feel is: drained, sad, hopeless, trapped, anxious, vulnerable and inadequate.

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